Monday, July 31, 2017

DEMETER: Demeter 1

35mm SLR camera photograph
April 20, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS endpapers

11 x 14 inches
ink on watercolor paper
March 26, 2013


Sunday, July 30, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 100

Title: Marlow ceased, and sat apart, indistinct and silent, in the pose of a meditating Buddha. Nobody moved for a time. "We have lost the first of the ebb," said the Director suddenly. I raised my head. The offing was barred by a black bank of clouds, and the tranquil waterway leading to the uttermost ends of the earth flowed sombre under an overcast sky -- seemed to lead into the heart of an immense darkness.

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
January 13, 2013


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 099

Title: "'Forgive me. I -- I have mourned so long in silence -- in silence. . . . You were with him -- to the last? I think of his loneliness. Nobody near to understand him as I would have understood. Perhaps no one to hear. . . .' 

"'To the very end,' I said, shakily. 'I heard his very last words. . . .' I stopped in a fright.

"'Repeat them,' she murmured in a heart-broken tone. 'I want -- I want -- something -- something -- to -- to live with.'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
January 13, 2013


Saturday, July 29, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 098

Title: "'Yes, I know,' I said with something like despair in my heart, but bowing my head before the faith that was in her, before that great and saving illusion that shone with an unearthly glow in the darkness, in the triumphant darkness from which I could not have defended her -- from which I could not even defend myself."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
January 12, 2013


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 097

Title: "But with every word spoken the room was growing darker, and only her forehead, smooth and white, remained illumined by the inextinguishable light of belief and love."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
January 9, 2013


Friday, July 28, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 096

Title: "She came forward, all in black, with a pale head, floating towards me in the dusk. She was in mourning."

11 x 6.75 inches
acrylic paint and ink on watercolor paper
January 8, 2013


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 095

Title: "The dusk was falling. I had to wait in a lofty drawing-room with three long windows from floor to ceiling that were like three luminous and bedraped columns."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
January 8, 2013


Thursday, July 27, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 094

Title: "Thus I was left at last with a slim packet of letters and the girl's portrait. She struck me as beautiful -- I mean she had a beautiful expression."

11 x 6.75 inches
acrylic paint and ink on watercolor paper
January 7, 2013


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 093

Title: "'There was the making of an immense success,' said the man, who was an organist, I believe, with lank grey hair flowing over a greasy coat-collar."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
January 7, 2013


Wednesday, July 26, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 092

Title: "I tottered about the streets -- there were various affairs to settle -- grinning bitterly at perfectly respectable persons. I admit my behaviour was inexcusable, but then my temperature was seldom normal in these days."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
January 1, 2013


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 091

Title: "This is the reason why I affirm that Kurtz was a remarkable man. He had something to say. He said it."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 31, 2012


Tuesday, July 25, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 090

Title: "'The horror! The horror!'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 30, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 089

Title: "His was an impenetrable darkness. I looked at him as you peer down at a man who is lying at the bottom of a precipice where the sun never shines."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 29, 2012


Monday, July 24, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 088

Title: "The shade of the original Kurtz frequented the bedside of the hollow sham, whose fate it was to be buried presently in the mould of primeval earth."

11 x 6.75 inches
acrylic paint, ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 28, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 087

Title: "The brown current ran swiftly out of the heart of darkness, bearing us down towards the sea with twice the speed of our upward progress; and Kurtz's life was running swiftly, too, ebbing, ebbing out of his heart into the sea of inexorable time."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 28, 2012


Sunday, July 23, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 086

Title: "In front of the first rank, along the river, three men, plastered with bright red earth from head to foot, strutted to and fro restlessly. When we came abreast again, they faced the river, stamped their feet, nodded their horned heads, swayed their scarlet bodies..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 27, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 085

Title: "There was nothing either above or below him, and I knew it. He had kicked himself loose of the earth."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 26, 2012


Saturday, July 22, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 084

Title: "He rose, unsteady, long, pale, indistinct, like a vapour exhaled by the earth, and swayed slightly, misty and silent before me..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 26, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 083

Title: "As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail -- a broad trail through the grass. I remember the exultation with which I said to myself, 'He can't walk -- he is crawling on all-fours -- I've got him.'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 25, 2012


Friday, July 21, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 082

Title: "On the hill a big fire burned, illuminating fitfully a crooked corner of the station-house. One of the agents with a picket of a few of our blacks, armed for the purpose, was keeping guard over the ivory; but deep within the forest, red gleams that wavered, that seemed to sink and rise from the ground amongst confused columnar shapes of intense blackness, showed the exact position of the camp where Mr. Kurtz's adorers were keeping their uneasy vigil."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 24, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 081

Title: "'I am off. Could you give me a few Martini-Henry cartridges?' I could, and did, with proper secrecy. He helped himself, with a wink at me, to a handful of my tobacco. 'Between sailors -- you know -- good English tobacco.'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 23, 2012


Thursday, July 20, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 080

Title: "And for a moment it seemed to me as if I also were buried in a vast grave full of unspeakable secrets. I felt an intolerable weight oppressing my breast, the smell of the damp earth, the unseen presence of victorious corruption, the darkness of an impenetrable night..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 23, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 079

Title: "The manager came out. He did me the honour to take me under the arm and lead me aside."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 22, 2012


Wednesday, July 19, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 078

Title: "She walked with measured steps, draped in striped and fringed cloths, treading the earth proudly, with a slight jingle and flash of barbarous ornaments. She carried her head high; her hair was done in the shape of a helmet; she had brass leggings to the knee, brass wire gauntlets to the elbow, a crimson spot on her tawny cheek, innumerable necklaces of glass beads on her neck; bizarre things, charms, gifts of witch-men, that hung about her, glittered and trembled at every step. She must have had the value of several elephant tusks upon her. She was savage and superb, wild-eyed and magnificent; there was something ominous and stately in her deliberate progress. And in the hush that had fallen suddenly upon the whole sorrowful land, the immense wilderness, the colossal body of the fecund and mysterious life seemed to look at her, pensive, as though it had been looking at the image of its own tenebrous and passionate soul."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 22, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 077

Title: "I was struck by the fire of his eyes and the composed languor of his expression."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 16, 2012


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 076

Title: "He looked at least seven feet long. His covering had fallen off, and his body emerged from it pitiful and appalling as from a winding-sheet. I could see the cage of his ribs all astir, the bones of his arm waving. It was as though an animated image of death carved out of old ivory had been shaking its hand with menaces at a motionless crowd of men made of dark and glittering bronze. I saw him open his mouth wide -- it gave him a weirdly voracious aspect, as though he had wanted to swallow all the air, all the earth, all the men before him. A deep voice reached me faintly. He must have been shouting."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 16, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 075

Title: "'He was shamefully abandoned. A man like this, with such ideas. Shamefully! Shamefully!'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 15, 2012


Monday, July 17, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 074

Title: "Whether he knew of this deficiency himself I can't say. I think the knowledge came to him at last -- only at the very last. But the wilderness had found him out early, and had taken on him a terrible vengeance for the fantastic invasion. I think it had whispered to him things about himself which he did not know, things of which he had no conception till he took counsel with this great solitude -- and the whisper had proved irresistibly fascinating. It echoed loudly within him because he was hollow at the core..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 14, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 073

Title: "I had expected to see a knob of wood there, you know. I returned deliberately to the first I had seen -- and there it was, black, dried, sunken, with closed eyelids -- a head that seemed to sleep at the top of that pole, and, with the shrunken dry lips showing a narrow white line of the teeth, was smiling, too, smiling continuously at some endless and jocose dream of that eternal slumber."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 13, 2012


Sunday, July 16, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 072

Title: "'And he would say yes, and then he would remain; go off on another ivory hunt; disappear for weeks; forget himself amongst these people -- forget himself -- you know.'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 12, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 071

Title: "'You can't judge Mr. Kurtz as you would an ordinary man.'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 10, 2012


Saturday, July 15, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 070

Title: "He surely wanted nothing from the wilderness but space to breathe in and to push on through. His need was to exist, and to move onwards at the greatest possible risk, and with a maximum of privation. If the absolutely pure, uncalculating, unpractical spirit of adventure had ever ruled a human being, it ruled this bepatched youth. I almost envied him the possession of this modest and clear flame."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 10, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 069

Title: "'I tell you,' he cried, 'this man has enlarged my mind.' He opened his arms wide, staring at me with his little blue eyes that were perfectly round."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 10, 2012


Friday, July 14, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 068

Title: "The pipe soothed him..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 9, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 067

Title: "He looked like a harlequin. His clothes had been made of some stuff that was brown holland probably, but it was covered with patches all over, with bright patches, blue, red, and yellow -- patches on the back, patches on the front, patches on elbows, on knees; coloured binding around his jacket, scarlet edging at the bottom of his trousers; and the sun-shine made him look extremely gay and wonderfully neat withal, because you could see how beautifully all this patching had been done. A beardless, boyish face, very fair, no features to speak of, nose peeling, little blue eyes, smiles and frowns chasing each other over that open countenance like sunshine and shadow on a wind-swept plain."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 8, 2012


Thursday, July 13, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 066

Title: "Through my glasses I saw the slope of a hill interspersed with rare trees and perfectly free from under-growth. A long decaying building on the summit was half buried in the high grass; the large holes in the peaked roof gaped black from afar; the jungle and the woods made a background. There was no enclosure or fence of any kind; but there had been one apparently, for near the house half-a-dozen slim posts remained in a row, roughly trimmed, and with their upper ends ornamented with round carved balls. The rails, or whatever there had been between, had disappeared."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 8, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 065

Title: "Then without more ado I tipped him overboard. The current snatched him as though he had been a wisp of grass, and I saw the body roll over twice before I lost sight of it for ever."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 6, 2012


Wednesday, July 12, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 064

Title: "This was the unbounded power of eloquence -- of words -- of burning noble words. There were no practical hints to interrupt the magic current of phrases, unless a kind of note at the foot of the last page, scrawled evidently much later, in an unsteady hand, may be regarded as the exposition of a method. It was very simple, and at the end of that moving appeal to every altruistic sentiment it blazed at you, luminous and terrifying, like a flash of lightning in a serene sky: 'Exterminate all the brutes!'"

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 3, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 063

Title: "All Europe contributed to the making of Kurtz..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
December 2, 2012


Tuesday, July 11, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 062

Title: "He had taken a high seat amongst the devils of the land -- I mean literally."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 2, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 061

Title: "...it had taken him, loved him, embraced him, got into his veins, consumed his flesh, and sealed his soul to its own by the inconceivable ceremonies of some devilish initiation. He was its spoiled and pampered favourite."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 1, 2012


Monday, July 10, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 060

Title: "The point was in his being a gifted creature, and that of all his gifts the one that stood out preeminently, that carried with it a sense of real presence, was his ability to talk, his words -- the gift of expression, the bewildering, the illuminating, the most exalted and the most contemptible, the pulsating stream of light, or the deceitful flow from the heart of an impenetrable darkness."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 1, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 059

Title: "...he died without uttering a sound, without moving a limb, without twitching a muscle."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 3, 2012


Sunday, July 9, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 058

Title: "It was the shaft of a spear that, either thrown or lunged through the opening, had caught him in the side, just below the ribs; the blade had gone in out of sight, after making a frightful gash..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
December 3, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 057

Title: "I had to lean right out to swing the heavy shutter, and I saw a face amongst the leaves on the level with my own, looking at me very fierce and steady..."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
November 25, 2012


Saturday, July 8, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 056

Title: "Sticks, little sticks, were flying about -- thick: they were whizzing before my nose, dropping below me, striking behind me against my pilot-house."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
November 25, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 055

Title: "No sooner had we fairly entered it than I became aware it was much narrower than I had supposed. To the left of us there was the long uninterrupted shoal, and to the right a high, steep bank heavily overgrown with bushes."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
November 25, 2012


Friday, July 7, 2017

HEART OF DARKNESS, page 054

Title: "Still, I had also judged the jungle of both banks quite impenetrable -- and yet eyes were in it, eyes that had seen us."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink on watercolor paper
November 24, 2012


HEART OF DARKNESS, page 053

Title: "I looked at him, and had not the slightest doubt he was sincere. He was just the kind of man who would wish to preserve appearances. That was his restraint."

11 x 6.75 inches
ink and marker on watercolor paper
November 18, 2012